Heart exhausted by time and fail,
I am not strong enough for this love.
Never was, never will.
Time and trial – no matter
the start, the end always the same:
points sunken in, fails remembered
but ignored just the same.
I am not fit enough for love,
not like this, not in this way.
Suffer continually the pain
of only mismatched expectations
and hope again.
I am too weak to kneel
in this way.
No promises can be made, that have
not been broken before.
No resolves, no assurances
to be uttered that had not been
Turn my back onto chance and fate.
I hate them both, for causing me this
clear unmitigated pain. The fault is in me
for believing in them truly and purely.
Compassionate leave, respite wanted.
I am not strong enough to handle this love.
She kissed his neck, where pulse met skin.
‘You are alive.’
‘Yes I am,’ his statement struggled with short laughter that puffed out in two breaths.
‘And one day you will not.’ No answer came from he, neither movement nor word.
‘And I have you for this moment.
How wonderful is that.’
Closing eyes on a blurred
but made, undepressed bed-
side. Closing eyes to a thought of you
unseen by eyes in the living
Rather I lie in this lie
that lives in the blurred world
of truth and formless nonlies.
Fall in love with thoughts and dreams
and words that fall them inbetween and
though leagues and sleeps apart, the cracks wide
enough to bed oneself with fogged
truths that build this lovely night mental
and nightdreamnt scene.
To see you again
of this I wish.
My only wish, as
Reality sees fit.
Hardwork can get
my goals and dreams on.
But to win your heart and
mind’s eye means Luck
and Grace must both be kind.
Magic Divine must be the only
cause to have got me this far.
You’re already given my heart,
now I must try to capture yours.
Hello my love,
how do you fare this evening?
Where does it your heart dwells?
Does it dare think of me as mine does of you?
Where our paths fall, I wish them to be closer than else.
Where do they fall, so late this eve?
Fair is fair, work needs to be done – but please – I’d rather be
be in an us than not.